Yeah I, will love you, baby Always and I’ll be there Forever and a day, always I’ll be there, till the stars don’t shine ‘Til the heavens burst and the words don’t rhyme I know when I die you’ll be on my mind And I’ll love you, always

This Time

I’ve been sitting, watching life pass from the sidelines
Been waiting for a dream to seep in through my blinds
I wondered what might happen if I left this all behind
Would the wind be at my back?
Could I get you off my mind
This time?

This Is Why I Can’t Live Without You

You are the first person that enters my mind, on the days that I have good news and bad news. You are the only one who can understand me even if words seem to abandon my lips, even if I want to keep everything to myself, even if I refuse to open up to anyone. You are always there, patiently waiting, perpetually encouraging me to become myself again, and do the things that I love.

You have become the person who plays a significant part of my life. You have become someone I run into when my thoughts are killing me in the middle of the night. You have become the only one I entrusted my faith, my heart.

And I wonder how you’ve grown from a total stranger to the person I can’t live without.

I wonder at which point in my life I realized that you are more than just a friend to me. I wonder at which point I started to slowly fall in love with the way you walk, the way you talk, the way you smile, the way you look at me as if I’m always entertaining you. I wonder what have you done for me to believe in the kind of love that brightens up my whole world and makes me look forward to tomorrow. I wonder how our relationship has shaped me to push to become the best person for myself, for others, for the world.

Because loving you is so easy that I lost track of why, suddenly, you seem to be the only air I can breathe. And without you, I am lifeless.

Without you, I’m unable to find my purpose in this world. Without you, my nights are covered in darkness, with no stars or moon. Without you, I can’t remember who I am and where my feet are dragging me. Without you, my heart is blanketed with confusion, and my mind is dizzy with self-doubt.

And no one has ever made me feel this way before. No one has braved to take a risk, to come near me, and to actually get to know me. No one has made an effort to bring out my genuine smile from their witty banters. No one has challenged my beliefs and principles to my core. No one has given me a reason to take a chance on love.

You are the only exception.

You are the only one I instantly feel comfortable with. You are the only one I can laugh uncontrollably, without feeling self-conscious. You are the only one I can talk to for hours, and still not get bored.
You are the only reason why I still live, why I still hope, why I still hold on.
You are the only one I think about when I’m on the brink of giving up.

And I want to continue living this way. I want to continue living this life with you.

I want this relationship to go on, without an abrupt stop, without an end. I want to walk on this earth with you. I want to feel the rhythm of our hearts as we hug. I want to touch your skin, to hold your hands, to kiss your lips, so that I can remind myself that what we have is real.

I want to wake up each morning, knowing that even if the world crashes down on me – I still have you.

I still have you to escape my worst days. I still have you to run to when I’m scared. I still have you to confess everything that’s inside my heart. I still have you to love me even if I turn out to be a huge mess.

I still have you. And to me, that’s already enough, because living with you is the best thing that I can ask for.

1 Year Coming

As we begin to approach a year “officially” together, I can’t help but think of all the years I’ve known Karen. I know I’ve mentioned before, I met her when I was 4 years old. I could never forget the exact moment. I fell in love before I even knew what love was. In that moment, I knew that angels existed…

I had quite the fucked up upbringing, dealing with abuse, poverty, parental rejection… But when she was near, when we were playing. Everything that hurt disappeared.

I loved her then, I’ve loved her always, I love her now, and I will love her forever…

Stay With Me

Having known Karen since I was 4… this song reminds me of a very specific summer when I was 15. The things we did, the time we spent… I never wanted to leave. I’ve been thinking about that summer the past couple days.

Once again your eyes make it hard to say goodbye
So I’ll just keep driving
Where do you want to go?
It doesn’t really matter, as long as you are here with me

There’s something in the air tonight
Something that makes me feel alive
What were the words that you said to me
That made me feel so special?

Once again your eyes, make it hard to ask you why
So I sit here knuckles tight
Hands against the wheel, your head against the glass
And you mean so much to me

There’s something in the air tonight
Something that makes me feel alive
What were the words that you said to me
That made me feel so special?

Stay with me
Cigarettes and open air, hand in hand
Stay with me
Every star that I see is brighter than the last